thinking . . !

too much on my mind ..

need to : ask him

get ready

be to work on time ! 

get grades up

go to fear factory

make this worth it

attendance school ? 

talk to him . 

clean my car

what if ??! 

clean my room

go to practice everyday

getting sick .. ):

on the plus side .. 

got answered finally .

got my oil changed . (:

slept in

hung with garr & friends (:

had three days off work

fell flat on my butt at a haunted house

didn't get the cops called last night

linds grew up (; 

got all the corn out of my clothes (; hahha

made it through the corn maze

had a great talk with kels . 

(:

today has been one of the best day's i've had in a long time ! (: so as i was casually walking to my car this morning on my way to school , i saw something hanging out of my car door .

i didn't really think much of it and proceeded to scrape the stupid frost off my car . when i went to open my door i realized it was a letter (: even before opening it , my day was made .

it was the cutest thing ever . i don't think i have ever read something soo cute ! the letter was from the most amazing guy i know , garry ! (: it said anything and everything i wanted/needed to hear .

thank you soo much garr , you are the best thing that's ever happened to me . y o u mean the world to me . <3

lets jus say , from that point on , there wasn't a moment during the day i stopped smiling ! (:

day 8 (:

day 8: three things guys do that you love . 

easy ! 

• give compliments-- every girl loves compliments . they're the best (: plainandsimple .

• suprises-- as much as i hate waiting for them , they're soo worth it . whether the suprise is a note , flowers , a randomn cute text , coming up behind you and kissing you , anything . suprises are fun . (:

• dress good-- i love when guys know how to dress . and those muscle shirts ? mmhmm . hah kaylee know's what i'm talkinn bout . they are soo attractive , jus sayinn . also some good jeans , with nice back pockets . (; hahah

change

so as most people know there was a really bad car accident yesterday resulting in a girl from copper hills being killed .. when i heard about that it seriously killed me ! i didn't know her but many of the people i work with were friends with her and it broke my heart . she was such a gorgeous girl and seemed to be a real sweet girl who loved life ! my prayers are with her family <3

with all of that happening it made me truly realize how short life is . for all i know , i could die tomorrow . same with any of my friends or family . that is sooo hard to imagine . death is one of those things that is soo hard to deal with . on one hand your devistated that they're gone , but on the other you know they're in a much better place . i love knowing that . and i know that one day i'll see all of my loved ones again . <3

i jus need to work on living in the present , and living each and every day like it's my last . i have so many people that are so important to me in my life , and if i left this world without making sure they knew how much i loved them i would forever regret it . so , that is definetly something i'm going to change . 

day 7 (:

day 7: four things boys do that you hate ! (no order)

well honestly there's a lot of things boys do that i hate , but here's four (:

1. play girls-- if you like a girl , tell her (: if you don't also tell her ! it's m u c h better to let her know how your feeling than lead her on ..

2. boring texters-- sounds dumb , but i seriously hate boys who are boring to text . i'm not going to text you back if you don't try to keep the conversation going ! also use smilie faces (: they're cute . hahah

3. when they try too hard-- girls really don't really care if your fantastic at every sport , so don't say you are if your not . jus be yourself ! also the tough guy acts can get old sometimes (;

4. disrespect girls-- the majority of the boys i know don't disrespect girls but the ones that do i seriously want to punch in the face ! being rude to some girl isn't funny . treat every girl with respect , no matter what . thankyouverymuch . (:

missing..

sometimes i jus wish that everthing would be back to normal . 

i miss those texts that would jus make my day . i miss summer vacations . i miss staying up all night on my couch , trying to get reception for that goodnight message . i miss going boating . i miss knowing i meant the world to someone . i miss being told how "absoluetly gorgeous" i was . i miss having my friends a l l be so close . i miss hearing how happy i make him .  i miss staying out all night with kaylee and michelle . i miss not having homework .

 i miss .. a lot of things .. ! 

day 6 (:

day 6: five things that cross your mind a lot .

• school-- jus like homework , my grades , college , etc . 

• garry-- i'll be honest . (: hah he's always on my mind , and i like it that way . (:

• friends-- jus all my friends and their lifes and our frienships and drama and so on (:

• weekend-- the upcoming weekend is always on my mind . i
m the planner in my group , my friends jus kinda expect me to have something planned . i like it though . (:

• life-- jus life in general . life is so complicated sometimes . but i love my life <3