wish

sometimes i really wish my phone didn't turn off at eleven . maybe then my 11:11 wish would come true .. jus wish it was that simple . all i'd have to do is ask , and it would happen jus like that .

everytime my phone lights up , i'm always dissapointed because at this point i only wanna talk to one person .. so sorry if i don't text back . my life is insane right now and i jus want time to think . now if he texted me , things would be different . cause honestly all i want right now is to talk to him . not even be with him , jus need to talk to someone , and i feel like he always understands ..

life .

i honestly have no clue how i feel right now . i always said i loved the single life , but not so sure anymore .. talks with lance and andi today made me remember why i don't like being single . sure , when your single you get to flirt . which everyone loves to do . and you also get the attention of multiple boys . which is nice , not going to lie .

however , when your with someone , it's soo much better . you always have someone there for you , even when everything seems to be going wrong . you have someone to constanly remind you how important you are . you get to hear how much you mean to someone . you always have someone to hang with . you never have to be alone through anything . but most of all , you have someone to jus love . and get to be loved . that is what i miss . t h a t is why i'd much rather be commited to o n e guy rather than have free range .

reflect .

seems like so long ,

since i read your cute messages .

since i heard your voice .

since i felt so loved .

since you showed me you cared .

since you told me you loved me .

since you kissed me for the very first time .

since we talked about everything .

since we sang in the car .

since we had a blast doing nothing .

since they fell apart .

since they said goodbye .

since they stopped what was perfect .

sad thing is , wasn't that long ago ..

thankful .

i have soo much to be thankful for . (:

• amazing friends . been finding out who my real friends are lately . so glad i have them .
• thee best family . always there through thick and thin .
• the gospel . it's always been a part of my life , but i've relied on it more than ever lately .
• my car <3
• house
• shoes
• water
• electricity
• phone
• internet
• music
• hair , i'd be one ugly bald girl ..
• blankets
• my bed (:
• heat/ac
• colors
• boats (:
• doctors
• fireman
• policeman
• freedom
• hospitals
• military
• books
• education
• my job
• showers
• cologne (:
• mechanics

i could go on and on ..

there is sooo much to be grateful for these days ..

i'm jus thankful for life .

and e v e r y o n e in it . no matter who you are . thanks to everyone who has/is/or will be a part of my life . i love you all more than you know . (: happy thanksgiving ! hope everyone has had a great day , and finds time to thank the people in their life's for everything they've done . (:

thanksgiving .

i love thanksgiving time . today my family and i went and delivered meals to families who don't have money to have a thanksgiving dinner , or don't have families . we've done this for the past few years , but now that i'm older it's a lot more special . the looks on the families faces when they answer their doors is priceless . these people have such hard life's , yet they still are soo happy , and grateful for the smallest of things . i'm so glad my mom started having us do this every year . (:

then we went to my grandparents house . that's always my favorite part of thanksgiving . i love seeing the whole family and jus being able to talk about everything . i always get to hear the funnest stories . then comes football time . it's always fun to see the guys get all stressed and stuff . super fun . and shockingly thee cowboys won (; then 49ers , eagles . ehh

now , going black friday shopping with justin , kaylee , kyle , megan and spartacus (: super excited for that ! i jus love shopping , and it's even better when my favorite stores have everything half off . yeahh buddy (: i really need some shoes . and some jackets . and jeans . and perfume . and well everything (:

(:

trying .

why do i continue trying ? why can't i jus give up on people ? pet peeve : someone texts you about something pretty serious , you feel awful and text back , then no reply . hmm . thanks sooo much .

dear spartacus ,

since you think it's hilarious to read my blog , i will write you . (:
y o u my little friend need to stop hitting on tyson .
it's gross ... ! (;
also , we're going black friday shopping .
and you are going to push people so that i get those shoes . kay ?
thanks . your a doll .
also , your dad loves me , soo much (:
and so do you .
now , one more little thing ...

do my physics homework ... (: thankyouverymuch .